Angels

I believe Angels are all around us. We each have a Guardian Angel and then there is Arc- Angel Michael, Raphael, St Jude, etc... Angels are part of God, they work with God, in my understanding they are his assists so to speak. So, if you pray to God Angels will often appear to help or guide us.

Over the past few weeks I have been praying, maybe a little more than in the past or maybe a little more sincere than in the past and definitely louder (I use to pray quietly now I pray out-loud). I know they hear me but I don't know if I hear them. I ask for guidance and direction, I ask for messages, I ask for comfort. I know they are providing me with these but at times I still feel all alone, lonely, and quite empty.

Are these feelings normal? I don't know but I would presume so. When you lose things that matter to you there is a feeling of loss, a feeling that no one truly understands and a feeling of disparity. Therefore, I presume these feelings are normal. It is a time when you have to look at where you are, who you are, what you have and how you want to move forward.

As I think about all of this I ask my Angels to step in and help me. I know they are around because they are helping me sleep at night, they are providing a feeling of warmth when I feel left all alone.

Last night before falling asleep I asked my Angels to show me what is going on. The past few nights I have asked similar types of questions, show me what I need to do, show me where I need to go, show me what I should be doing, etc. In the mornings I journal but I never quite remember the previous nights question but ask similar things in my journal. The answers are fairly vague though. This morning I woke up and thought about the question and realized last night was the first night in a long time I don't remember any of my dreams. Lately my dreams have been vivid, I could remember who was in them yet, I couldn't quite figure out what they meant. Now, I don't remember anything. Is that a sign that my loss of memory is creeping into my dreams?

Deep down inside I feel my Angels showed me what is going on. My Soul knows, my mind might know but my memory doesn't . There is a slight comfort but there is still sorrow. I was hoping to move past the sorrow and into an understanding of what was going on. Right now I am still left with asking my Angels where to go to find positions, what to look for and who to apply to. I also continue to ask for them to help me listen to them and keep my heart open to them. Are they answering, are they there, I am positive they are. I wish I could see them, feel them, understand them but right now the only thing I have is a belief they are there. Why still a belief? I do notice small things happening and I feel comforted knowing I can ask for help and with a quick muscle test know at least with a yes or no if I am heading in the correct direction.

I wish I could see them, I have read they are beautiful, their light is magnificent. I am excited about seeing them again. I think somewhere deep down I yearn to return but yet I know there is a lot for me to learn and understand here. I know it is easier to learn here so I am working on learning what I can. I wish it were easier. What I do know is my Angels are at my side with me along the way.